You summed it up perfectly. You and I are exactly alike.
I’m at the point where I don’t care about anything. If it weren’t for my elderly mother and my beloved doggies and Maine Coon Cat, I would live in bed.
I’m currently very interested in the case of Christine Chubbock, a former Reporter for a Sarasota, Florida TV station.In 1974, she made history by shooting herself in the head on the air.
Chubbock suffered from severe Clinical Depression for years and therapy and meds didn’t help. When I read and watch videos about Chubbock, I feel such an empathy with her. I understand her desperation.
My older sister also suffers from Clinical Depression. She stayed in bed for several years and still struggles mightily to keep going.
My sister and I suffered from trauma when we were growing up. I believe our Depression battles are a combination of hereditary issues and our messed up experiences.
I thank you for your thoughtful, insightful post. You perfectly described the Hell that depression sufferers endure.
I sent you mail theough here... :)