People use “gay” as something that sucks.
But you have made clear you actually mean homosexual.
You might want to visit a psychiatrist so he can hold up splotches and you can tell him what is gay.
Then maybe your failed logic will be made clear to you.
Or you may find that with so much gay on your mind you actually are gay.
You are welcome.
Quite often they do.
You are making this more complicated than it is.
Soccer is gay. Bing, bang, boom.
A very simple concept. Best not to get so worked up about it.