We have all done something to be sorry for, I have many times...you did what you could to make it okay and that is all you can do...someday real soon I do feel we all will be getting together, we can't go through something like this investigation without coming together in real life, and then you can do what you wanted, to buy him all the brewskies you wanted to...
Hang in there FRiend, we are all human...
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