“Maybe some of us are just too broken for God to hear. Maybe for some of us our lives are mistakes.”
Please, no. NO one is ever too broken for God to hear! HE is aware of YOU personally!!
Years ago, I went through the SAME thing. I shook my fist at God and said that if He didn’t care enough, that I would end my situation.
HE intervened and from that day forward, I am CONVINCED that He IS aware of you and your situation.
I have a 20 yr old son who wont acknowledge me. He is my BABY boy - I would die for him even though he’s being a jerk to me. He’s my son. NOTHING can ever break my love for him. It is HIS choice to break our relationship. But I am here whenever he changes his mind.
God is there with you whether you think so or not. YOU are worth DYING for. Your life is NOT a mistake.
Trust me... Ive felt the same way. As time passes, you will see the meaning your life has and why sometimes it seemed like it was pointless.
P.S.- my wife came along when I stopped worrying about having someone. Didn’t expect her at all! And I’m no prize...
Hang in there, Joe, I went through what you are now experiencing with my son, my first born,thirty years ago. We were living in Japan at the time and he was in college in the States. For some unknown reason he was very angry!
I happened to pick up a book about relationships and God which advised me to have patience and to turn my angry son and our relationship over to God. That didn’t mean to wash my hands of him but to ask God for His help.
Whenever my son would call and before the call ended, I would say, “ I love you, Scott.” He would begin to rant and say, “ You don’t love me, you never cared abou me and on and on”. I would quietly put down the phone my heart breaking.
Gradually things changed and over six months his answers went from you don,t love me to Yeah. sure! to Yeah to finally “ I love you to, Mom.” I even received a letter from his girlfriend telling me that Scott believed that I really did care about him,
years later when his daughter was born, he told me that he was glad he had a daughter because he knew what he had done to me and he did not want his wife to go through the same thing. To day at fifty, he has become a very thoughtful and devoted son.
I learned from that that just as I loved my son and let him know that despite what he did, my love was unconditional the same way that God’s love for me was also and that He is there if only we would acknowledge it. I wish you all the best. Merry Christmas and a better happier New Year!