Very sorry to hear that. I sincerely hope things improve for you.
I’m okay with it. I don’t have to get my hair done with cut and color every six weeks or eyebrow waxes. I don’t have to get manicures and pedicures every two weeks. I don’t have to invest in makeup or jewelry. Don’t have to wear pantyhose, suits, and heels anymore either. Pantyhose is expensive... six bucks or more per pair.
I also don’t have to drive since I work at home.
I still get a small monthly retirement stipend and at 62 will get social security and my husband has made sure I will be taken care of.