Sometimes the word "hate" doesn't have to be spoken. It's apparent to most of those who read what you write that hatred and unforgiveness are evident. I truly feel sorry for you that you had such a horrid life with your Mother. However, if you want Christ to forgive you, you must have unforgiveness in your heart. Since it's not specific in the Bible who we are to forgive, I believe it is ALL who have wronged us. The KJV of the Bible says that "But if ye forgive not men their trespasses". Does that mean that we don't have to forgive women? Just because the Bible doesn't specifically say that we have to forgive the dead it doesn't mean that we don't have to.
The Spirit isn’t convicting me of a need to forgive. End of story.