I’m with you, now. Took me about 2 years to get used to wearing a CPAP, absolutely hated it at first. Secret for me was to not wear the mask quite to tight on my face. Now I’m like you, almost afraid not to sleep with it.
Dittos, been on BPAP since 2008. Lost 40 pounds and now on CPAP full mask. Break into cold sweet if I think something is wrong with the machine because I know how I'll feel in the morning without it. I'm a 100%'er and they can have all the studies they want. For me it works and has given me a better safer life