You suffer from cognitive dissonance. You say you are conservative and for small government and freedom, yet would force others to go against conscience because your faith is in big brother. None of my children have been vaccinated, and we have a very big family. God protects us. When they have been sick, God heals us. My older kids have travelled to 3 continents and been in the jungle, competing in sports, traveling, and preaching the Gospel. My younger ones are following in their older siblings footsteps. I am truly sorry that fear grips you. How did your grandparents and great grandparents survive?