No offense bro, but this is the exact worst reaction people can have to addiction. You do not conquer it. You cannot put effort into it. You do not dominate it.
To succeed, you must totally surrender. You must rely on God and other people in the program. Beating drugs is impossible. Surrendering to your condition and asking God and your fellow man is the only thing that works.
Wow, Laz.
Giving that response revealed a HELL of a lot more wisdom and courage than anything else you posted tonight!
Thank you for that, and God bless.