Fault is the wrong word. I’m sure you did nothing to deserve what you got just as I’m sure nobody’s perfect.
Most of the blame game has a built-in wish that things could have stayed the way they were. From my perspective (distant as it is) the change is better for you, even though it hurts now.
But it isn’t about you being a lesser human being. Again, from here, it just ain’t so!
Thanks for the words of encouragement. At this point, the pain is still raw, but easing. It’s so hard to fill my days, now.
I’m sure if I could find something interesting and productive to do I could get through this easier.
It won’t kill me, but it will make me wiser. Sad to admit, I’ve been through this before, but I never thought I’d be given the sucker punch to my heart again. Dang me.