Sorry to hear that but i doubt you are alone in that respect....take a look at the thread for people alone at Christmas Eve....it’s an education of people in all sorts of “aloneness” states. ...
I know, I have been alone and abandoned for 6 years. From someone who constantly threw family parties, church parties, helped with anything I was asked to do, to being alone on Christmas Eve and part of Christmas Day even though I did nothing to warrant it is a shock and is horrifying. I saw the alone on Christmas thread and it was very sad.