[winodog]

Looks like you have proven you don’t have the will power to quit bowing to king alcohol. Good luck doing what you are doing.
I was lucky in that I went to AA and discovered God. I asked Jesus to take over my life and remove the obsession to drink over 21 years ago. Something welled up inside of me at that moment and I have not desired a drink since.

[Resettozero]

Something welled up inside of me at that moment...

It took that Something remaining with me constantly and providing the encouragement to keep on keeping on. Looking back, I realized my addictions were just lies and there was not that much physical dependency at all. Nearly 25 years.