I’m trying to do the right thing and sometimes yes I’m clumsy about it. I can talk like that because I’ve been there and done that. I had an ego so big it’s a “miracle” my skull didn’t bust open. But I couldn’t see God, couldn’t see the need for a salvation that meant more than just good luck with what I jolly well wanted to do. I needed a whole new point of view. God finally showed me who was boss and it wasn’t me... and yet He wasn’t some arbitrary tyrant. I had thrown in my soul with Satan’s proud evil, and I had to be humbled.
I have been a Christian since I was 8. I knew He was always there for me. That lesson was really brought home in 2004 when our younger daughter died. I have seen families torn apart after losing a child. I did not know until years later that people were watching me to see my reaction. There is absolutely nothing worse than losing a child. Within 3 years, we lost my brother, husband, and my mom. I tell people if I make it through January, the rest of the year is lots better. My daughter, mom, dad, and a grandfather died during that month. God is very real just like that ole song says. I do not understand how people make it without Him.