I can see that Roy didn’t teach you much about God’s word. Why do you think that you don’t have to learn it as the bible states that you should?
To learn Gods word in the bible as you would learn any subject is a big mistake and exactly what the devil wants you to do. She the holy the spirit teaches, it does it’s own magic, not needing man’s ego efforts. You have a big pile of learned words with no real turning away from din in your heart. As I stated earlier, the blind leading the blind.