Well, I was terminated at the airline because I could not function...I could never sleep and I have never been able to drag myself from bed till late afternoon...which meant I always worked a night shift.
They let me go because I was missing too much work...well, hello! So I prayed about it and that was when my answer came from the Lord to fight for the job but that the battle would be His and everyone would know it. Led me to a Christian attorney and two years later, almost to the day, I was reinstated. But just like Elijah after the Lord gave him victory over those nasty Baal prophets, I crumbled like a cookie and collapsed. It was the end of a very long, exhausting 40 years of my life and just like Elijah, He let me come home and heal.
So have spent the last 10 years or so finding out what is wrong with me and diagnosed with mental and physical illness. Worked at home for as long as I could but then eventually had to go on disability. My lease on the house I am currently renting will be up at the end of this year so that is why I am in somewhat of a hurry to see if I can get this smaller one and get out from under the burden of this one. So we will see what we will see. If it is meant to be, it will and if not I’ll stay here another year. I won’t be homeless at least.
So you got that inner ear infection from that elderly woman then, didn’t you? And that is what set off your health issues? Amazing!
My issues, especially the mental health issues, have a long family history. I can’t help thinking that my great-grandmother and my grandfather would have had a much better quality of life if Zoloft and Effexor had been around for them. Breaks my heart they suffered all their lives with no relief from this. As bad as it is though, there is always someone else worse off so I still count my blessings.
Close. I have Vestibular Disorders and an Inner Ear infection is a vestibualr Disorder also. Vestibular is Inner Ear and Inner Ear processing related. When I was real young around 4-5 I had inappropriate sensory responses. If something I saw scared me I stopped up my ears.
They also found out when I was about 7 than both of my eyes could not ever function at the same time. I'm one eye functional but I can pass a basic sight chart eye exam. I have eye and muscle coordination issues and that's why I had two years Occupational Therapy. It bought me some time in the armed forces and in the work force afterward I likely would not have had. IOW I could never pass a cops field sobriety test of walk a straight line etc. LOL
I also have had life long severe sinus allergies severe enough to require allergy shots. My mom and dad when I was growing up could not figure out why I could wear out any pair of shoes they bought me in a matter of a couple of weeks as I broke the sides over. That's because I'm club footed and because of my Inner ear issues I also walk off balance and my feet compensate by my ankles turning inward. As an adult I had to eventually go to wearing corrective insoles so I could walk. The corective insoles stopped the wearing out of shoes as long as I wear working boots that support my ankles.
How I finally connected it all was by a book I found in a second hand book store called Phobia Free by Harold Levinsion MD. The man is a researcher neurologist/psychiatrist and began connecting his patients anxiety disorders, learning disorders, and Dyslexic symptoms, to Vestibular Disorders being the underlying physical cause. Not in all cases but a significant portion.
I was two years into treatment for G.A.D. and PTSD when I found the book. It is also a forerunner to the Central Auditory Processing Disorders I was posting about. Levinsons theory on ADD ADHD was Cerebellar/Vestibular related rather than chemical.
The Mental Health profession dismissed his findings. In the past decade or so Vestibular Researchers have actually validated or confirmed a lot of his findings and theories. Adults with a childhood history of Chronic Ear Infections, Sinus Allergies, etc are more prone to this.
It has to do with the inter workings or communications with the Cerebellar/Vestibular System. That is why when they gave me antidepressants they made my condition worse because sensory impulses were enhanced and the Xanax works because sensory is toned down. When I understood this I put my foot down with the doctors about my treatment.
I can go into a Walmart and I can see persons who have a touch of it. They'll be the ones whom when the workers start making blaring announcements every minute they become more and more anxious or agitated. Several things are happening. They are trying to locate what they came to buy and remember what all they came there for. Each announcement disrupts that process.
I can spot kids with this playing baseball. Watch for consistent late swings or the kid ducking away rather than swinging at the ball. No amount of coaching can correct it as the brain is in preservation mode. If you don't respond in a manner the brain sees as addressing the danger then the phobic {non phobic actually} reactions begin. I'm terrified of high places. Why? Because my brain knows I have poor balance and high places are a risk for me. The older I got the worse the fear got. Also the more poor my balance became. That is why he named the book Phobia Free. The responses as such are not true phobic but rather danger impulses triggered by the brain recognizing dangers.
I developed Meneries Disease about three years into disability and Tinnitus at multiple frequencies has been ongoing for a couple of decades.
Here is a good description of it. This was not know when it hit me. http://www.oocities.org/gotmenieres/cognitive_aspects_of_vestibular_.htm