My experience was similar. I did NOT want to go to meetings. I went anyways, and after a while, I discovered I didn't HAVE to go to meetings, I *GOT* to go to meetings. They became high points in my day. The love, the camaraderie, the recovery and good suggestions on how to live life, were stellar.
Did not see you on thread until I posted mine. Dude! That is cosmic -or something.
I also credit my success to this experience.
Good man...