Tears Laz. I'll cry with you. I too have played the "what if" game, for it was I who had to make the decisions for Dad when his time came. I never had time to grieve, I was so busy after Dad passed. Tears Laz and Thanks.I hope that you got a small answer to the 'what if' question, that pointless, self-torturous nonsensical thought that nags us until we hear the truth....