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Dear Laz, I am so sorry for the loss of your dear kitty cat.
I am relieved to read your insights into where our beloved pet’s spirits go. I lost my horse Jack 4 months ago. He had a sudden problem and had to be euthanized the morning I found him unable to rise in his stall. He was with me for over 10 years. He was about 28 years old. I always said it was “til death do us part” with Jack. As he took his last giant breath I told him I kept my promise to be with him until one of us died.

From the first day he left this world, I have found heart shaped rocks on his grave as I slowly worked at leveling the work the backhoe did in March. I now have a pile of them, different colors and degrees of abstraction from a perfect heart shape. They are now his grave marker. I seeded grass over the grave and have been watering it daily. I have gotten another horse, and still have Jack’s horse companion too. The magic is gone. It left with Jack. The separation is difficult. I carried a lock of his mane hair with me in my shirt pocket for a week after he died just to have some part of him close to me. Here it is 4 months later and just telling you of this has me all undone. I pray that Jack will rejoin me in Heaven. I have been reassured by other horse owners who are Christian that Jesus has a horse in Heaven. Several near death experience books I read confirmed that.

We get a special animal in our lives like Cathy and Jack, sometimes only once in a lifetime, and more if we are lucky. I’ve lost 3 dogs before, and have 2 now. Euthanizing a 1200 pound horse while I whispered I love you in his ear was the most emotional thing I’ve ever gone through. It pains me to recall that morning. He was my steady riding horse, safe and calm, there when I needed to hug his big neck and cry into his mane, he let me kiss his wonderful velvety muzzle and always smelled of perfume there, horse perfume to a horse lover.

I have not wept at his grave for a while. It was daily for many weeks. I put flowers on the grave everyday for weeks. It is good I could bury him near his beloved barn and I can visit anytime I want with just a few hundred feet to walk there. I think loving an animal as intensely as you and I did, does make them able to be with us in Heaven. God is just, and kind and loves us. He would not deny us eternity with our beloved pets.

We are both lucky to have loved our special friends so deeply.