I have been going through what you described.
I finally threw off the anti depressants.(I equate them with quackery)
They are the modern method of lobotomy as far as I am concerned.
I can feel again. I had a problem though with the withdrawel that caused
A loss of incognitive reasoning that proved bad enough to loose my job.
Like I said I can feel again so I am at battle with the doubt and discouragement by the evil one but in recognizing by studying the scriptures that I can now focus more on the remedy because I recognize this now and yes, it is exciting because It confirms my Father and strengthens my faith (the holy spirit testifies “Abba” my Father) it is
Jesus who will lift me up out of this pit. Focus and act is on my belief not on my doubt. The doubt is the evil one, don’t listen to it.
Give the Be Still and Know a listen at patriotoutreach.org please. I think you will be amazed..