I console mmyself with, “It is sufficient unto me.” I’m not going to question Him, but there are days when I would like to. And then I think of Job, and say to me, “Shame on you for being such a wuss.”
Yepper. Like that.
I’m content with knowing that eventually, I will have the answer. For now, it is for me to play the best I can with a cappy bunch of cards. ;o]
If we believe that God is our Father who loves us, we must also believe that everything He does or allows is for our good. So, what is our good? Is it financial security? Jesus said, “Blessed are you poor.” Is it earthly happiness? Jesus said, “Blessed are you sorrowing.” Is it ease and health? St. Paul wrote, “I rejoice in my sufferings.”
As I see it, “good” is the salvation and sanctification of every person. What happens to us is intended for our growth in holiness and for our contribution to the holiness of others. More detail ... “Why this, specifically, for me, personally?” ... would not, in my opinion, make things any easier. The natural man has to die and be buried in order to be resurrected, and as Jesus showed us, dying hurts.