You are not the type of individual I care to be associated with.
I urge you to have your doctor double the dosages on all your medicine, and if for some reason you’ve never taken lithium, go to the ER immediately and demand a prescription.
Also, lobotomies overall have not been performed as a psychiatric procedure in over 60 years due to many ethical, moral issues but it is still performed under certain circumstances, a very lucky break for you.