a) there were so many of you and
b) I wasn't really in the right frame of mind to express my sincere gratitude.
For those of you who have gone through what I have gone through, there is nothing I need to say. For those of you who haven't, there is nothing that I can say.
For those of you who are confident that God has a plan for you and that regardless of the burdens you may have to bear you will, one day, be able to gaze in rapture upon His perfection, I envy you.
I, for various reasons, was raised to question all total certainties, including the certainty that “truth is beauty and beauty truth”. I know that wanting something to be true doesn't make it true. And wanting something to be false doesn't make it false.
Was I an “attention whore”? Depends on your definition. Did I (and do I) continue to awake every morning asking God and the fates why I still have to go through another day? Yes.
Should I have kept that primal scream of anguish and pain to myself? Probably. But when one is completely alone in a very large universe, one seeks whatever traveling companions one can find.
Again, for those of you who made a sincere effort to reach out to someone who was hurting, your efforts succeeded. For those of you (whom my roommate at Thomas Aquinas College used to call “the Pharisees”!) who simply wished to show others how “compassionate” you were without actually understanding, I will wish on you (not the full penance which I wouldn't wish on anyone) five minutes of feeling like your whole life has been worthless, that there is someone who needs you and depends on you but there's nothing you can do for her because you are chained to a rock (imagine, if you prefer a more visual mental image, that she is being kidnapped by leftie forces while you are chained to a cavern wall while gagged).
Is it unfair of me to throw this out there to people I don't know simply on the basis of the fact that we share (for the most part) a political, cultural and religious point of view? Again, perhaps. But then, if I can't share it with you, I certainly can't share it with the stupid Marxists in Portlandia.
You are full of crap and you have had no less than 7 days, one week, to express anything back to anyone who showed a scintilla of compassion to you, for you and your daughter.
Only when we expressed our outrage at the fraud you demonstrated so eloquently this morning, and perhaps after a Mod had a word with you, did you even consider letting the rest of us know anything.
In fact, your first tripe was to be completely and wholly dismissive and let us know “There’s time for that later”.
You are a vacuous gas bag and today someone eluded to you being a writer?
Of what? Fictions of emotional entrapment for your own self gratification or will our thoughts be fodder for your Half truth storied life?
Do you intend to leverage our experience of your fraud and at the very real expense to your daughter.
You should be ashamed of yourself.
You are a nOOb, a troll, an intellectually and morally bankrupt poseur.
Several Freepers have your name indelibly etched in their mind.
You can’t even muster an apology for your fakery? I and I am sure others pity you for hopeless mastery of others as you are quite obviously incapable of mastering yourself.
Using your daughter as a lever to pry attention from others?
It’s pretty obvious, you have no shame and indulge in one too many substances that enhance your incredibly miserly emotions, except that everyone be used as a tool of your self delusion for validation and a scintilla of purpose.
Which was, of course, to rob many of us of our attention, time and emotion that was briefly invested in you.
You hall of mirrors betrays your fallow intellect and proves you to be “Philosopher Stoned”.
You should at the very least apologize to your daughter.
She will find out anyway.
Glad you chose NOT to let the Democrats vote for you from the grave, just yet...
Welcome back.
In the end, I think it’s best not to involve oneself in pissing matches with those who come to this forum to win, and to prove themselves to themselves superior to others. Let them get their kicks elsewhere, leave them frustrated, mock them, that is all they deserve, move on. Let them think they know best. Let them “win”. Your initial question stands. Cheers!