I've made my peace with it. It's the culling of the herd. I'm no longer young enough or healthy enough to survive such a calamity. So be it.If it were me, I'd agree with you.
But I'm not talking about me. I'm talking about a vibrant 15 year old kid who's looking forward to a wife and a family of his own and who's trusting me to get him there.
In the end, if G-d wants my kid to live, he'll live. I know that. But I also know that G-d helps he who helps himself.
I understand. I'm glad I have only myself to take care of.... By the way, you've probably already done this, but have you looked for that out-of-print textbook on ALIBRIS or any of the other online used book services? Even Amazon.com will check for used books.