I think that makes a lot of sense.
I’ve been following this story very closely as I used to be a big fan of his, and I’ve been struggling to make sense in all of this.
The reports I’ve been reading is that he and his wife had been arguing about the future of their son. She understandably wanted him home more often, but he was conflicted. Not only would he have to give up on a pending title run, he would have to take a major pay cut, and worry about the great financial costs of caring for a disabled child. Furthermore, he probably wondered how many more productive years could he have in the ring before he was forced to retire.
I’m guessing at that point they had a major argument. He blames her for passing on the defective X chromosome and she says something hurtful in response. Things quickly get out of hand.
Now, Chris Benoit has only known wrestling his entire life. He’s terrible behind the microphone and can only express himself physically. Furthermore, he’s a perfectionist, and perfectionism is often about having control over a situation. How does a perfectionist deal with a terminally imperfect situation? Nobody interviewed seem to know about Daniel’s condition. He probably bottled it up along with all the other mixed feelings of shame, guilt, and love that comes with raising a disabled child.
Nancy slaps at him and he must regain control. He uses physical methods to gain conrol of the situation. It’s the only way he knows how. He grabs some rope from somewhere, and binds her hands. When she kicks, he binds her legs. And when she continues to shout insults, he shuts her up the only way he knows how... physically. Would that scenario fit as a product of roid rage? Seems odd to me that somebody with roid rage commit three separate acts: Bind hands, bind feet, strangle. This, is more of a escalation of rage, not an explosion.
Nancy is left bound and strangled and the perfectionist is left with a terribly imperfect situation. Daniel will grow up knowing his father is a murderer. But more importantly to Benoit, Daniel will face physical abnormalities and mental defects— A fate, in his opinion, that is worse than death.
So then he makes two very conscious and pre-meditated decisions. He would rather burn in hell than to see his child lead an imperfect life.
Makes more sense than the knee jerk “roid rage” copout.
One thing is certain, he practiced no type of Christianity regardless of placing a bible with each. By their fruits you know those who do. People who practice religion pray. They find comfort in the cross of Christ when facing difficult or impossible situations. They view each and every life as sacred, no matter if the life fits their definition of "perfect."
He did not pick up his cross and follow Jesus in suffering through this life and all of its trial. One cannot even say that he had a background of Catholicism because it may have been that his parents were such in name only. Maybe he never knew about the Cross as the answer to suffering.
He knew in his heart what he did was wrong, but he did it anyway, and perhaps his laying scripture by the bodies was his way of trying to put his finger on something he only vaguely knew about.
I prayed for him and asked God to find mercy for him because I don't think he was completely evil and beyond redemption. There is nothing wrong with asking for mercy when the circumstances are so clouded. In fact, I believe it is better than wishing the man to burn in hell, but showing mercy and forgiveness seems to be an anomaly these days.