It sounds to me as if you were thinking, you passed up one chance and gambled that a better one would present itself. It did, you acted, and you are alive. I am sure you felt panicked. However, you acted rationally.
I only acted rationally later on when I made a determination that I needed to take some kind of action; it was after I had panicked. At the time I even KNEW I was panicking, which probably helped me to zero in. I had Providence because there was a second chance to affect the outcome, but for many of these students there was only one chance for “Let’s Roll”. They missed it. The consequence was death.
It might be one of those things where the older you get, the more you realize you’ve only got this one chance. One of their professors understood that, and he is a genuine hero who gave up his life to save others.
Professor hailed as a hero
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