The Hobbit Hole XXXIII - And the brook that leaps from hill to plain...

[SuziQ]

We can get GPS on our new phones, and I found out that we could sign up for only a month, say if we were going on vacation and only needed it for a few weeks. Then we could cancel it. That may come in handy, sometime.

[RosieCotton]

It’s something like ten bucks a month at least, isn’t it?

For that amount, I could buy myself a decent dedicated unit in a year.

[SuziQ]

Yeah, it’s $10 a month, but I didn’t want to sign up for a full year of it, if we didn’t need that.

[RosieCotton]

You guys still planning on taking in some of the Greener Fest spectacle tomorrow?

[HairOfTheDog]

Ack - well, I just remembered, we’re supposed to go to the beach house to mow again...

Rats. I did want to take you to see that. You may have to go without us :~)

[HairOfTheDog]

Good evening.. are you back?

[HairOfTheDog]

Do you serve red or white with popcorn?

Depends... are you dunking?

[Corin Stormhands]

No, I am not drunking...

Oh...you said dunking...nevermind...

[HairOfTheDog]

In that case I think either’s fine. If you’re dunking, I’d avoid the red.

[RosieCotton]

I don't think I dare go alone...too many people! I suppose I could get lost on Delphi and end up there accidentry, but I don't really *plan* on that.

... Engineer guy wrote me to ask if I want to go to a movie on Sunday. *sigh* I can just see this becoming a problem. He reminds me of two other guys I've known in the past and who I still can't remember with any comfort. If I'm nice, I've been "leading them on" when the inevitable happens and it turns out they've assumed from day one that we're serious. If I'm not nice...well, I'm not good at that.

I know it's just a movie even if I do accept it. I'm just getting uneasy feelings, 'cause I'm really not interested at all. We have nothing at *all* to discuss.

[Corin Stormhands]

***you'll have the movie to discuss...***

and

***wear something floozy***

[Corin Stormhands]

Okay, so I know we’re nowhere near Christmas. But I’m planning ahead. We have to buy/make multiple small gifts for people at school, in the show (whether I do it or not wife and Luke are), and elsewhere. I found these cookie cutters last year and didn’t order them before they were discontinued. I found another source for them.

http://www.coppergifts.com/ProductCart/pc/viewPrd.asp?idproduct=2643&welcome=386

I need a good crisp cookie recipe, either sugar or preferably a gingerbread type that’s 1) easy to cut out, and 2) will be fairly “sturdy” when cut into these shapes.

Discuss.

[RosieCotton]

But I don't like him. The more I think about it, the more uneasy I feel about doing anything more with him.. :-\

Call it bad vibes. I've had this horrible "here we go again" feeling all week.

Why just *one* guy I'm interested in and - most importantly - *respect* can't find me less than disgusting, I don't know.

[HairOfTheDog]

OK ... ...IF you're closing the door on it, go ahead. If you're meant to pair up it'll happen a different way, I guess. BUT... Are you sure you'll never have something to discuss? I mean... You're talking on a thread now with a bunch of people who haven't had a topic or a whole lot in "common" in nearly three years and yet we keep talking, because we like each other. Once you get past the canned topics you think you're supposed to have to talk about, you find that real life is talking about work, or needing to go to town, or your bike ride where you got lost... or the bird that strangled itself on the hood of your car. And you find out what's been happening to him.

It is far easier to live a safe life. I do know that.

[Corin Stormhands]

Okay, but...Is it misery to spend time with him? Or do you only hestiate because he's not Mr. Right? Could he just as easily be Mr. Okay-to-spend-time-with-right-now?

I'm just askin'.

[RosieCotton]

...He reminds me very much of several other guys I've known who didn't understand the whole "just being friends" thing. Kind of socially backwards guys who I felt I was humoring. I know just how badly it can be to just try to do stuff with someone just to be nice. How do you be friends with someone who assumes your every kind word means more than it does?

[RosieCotton]

This is why I think maybe I'm better off alone.

Honestly, if I'm going to go out one-on-one with anyone, I'd rather it be someone I know a bit first from a group standpoint or *something*. It's too creepy and forced otherwise. And if that makes me a terrible person, I'm a terrible person. I also don't want to pretend to have "dates" with someone when it's just going through the motions and I'm hating it every step of the way. And maybe I'm just not meant to be with anyone else. Maybe I'm not really fit for it. Otherwise, why does doing anything like Sunday make me feel depressed and miserable for days and weeks afterwards? It's more than just a feeling of going outside my comfort zone. Riding on the roads is outside my comfort zone, but that is kind of a triumphant feeling. So - mostly - are things like going to music dealies. But not that.

[RosieCotton]

And really I *do* have a problem with doing a lot of one-on-one type activities with someone who isn't someone I'd pick as a friend and who isn't, in my opinion, marriage material *for me*. It's a waste of both of our time and emotional energy. Again, if thinking that way makes me a bad person who is doomed to be alone...well, so be it, and it probably means I'm better off *not* inflicting myself on another human being. But it's the way I feel about the subject. But now I'm already somewhat committed and I don't know what to tell him.

[HairOfTheDog]

OK - I don’t know what else to say, I think you’d shoot it down anyway.

[Corin Stormhands]

It doesn't make you a bad or difficult person at all. I understand.