Thank you for your thoughts. My sincerest condolences for your loss. I lost my mother to cancer on Christmas Eve, 1985. I wish I could say something that could help sooth the pain you must feel, but there's nothing that would help. Just try to understand that as time passes, although the pain will never completely go away, the sharp pain you now feel will eventually change to a dull ache. And over time, you'll find that you forget the "bad times" and recriminations, until all you remember are the good things.
Sincerly,
Mark