It is a tough question...and I can see it from both sides. I really do like my privacy and not having to be responsible for anybody else on the one hand, but on the other hand, I really like being a mom and I really enjoyed haivng kids around, even though I fussed at them a lot. I really missed them when they were gone.
Whatever decision you come to, I'm sure will be based on careful thought as you aren't a spontaneous decision maker but a careful planner instead.
(Uh oh.. been payin' too much attention to people, I gotta do something goofy or my reputation is ruined!)
Foster care?