I've got some good advice for you and other FReepers, Stay away from ClownPosse. I've learned the HARD WAY that they are nothing but trouble.
(The current problems I'm having with doug are partially the result of bad netizen habits I picked up from them. I hope to learn from this site to start making arguments about persons I
dissagree with either the actions or politics of at a given moment in a less militious and "gissipy" manner.)
You were on Liberty Post spewing your hatred and filth, long before you ever went to CP!
On a serious tip, if you are sincere, then you will take some (well-deserved) drubbing for a while. Don't respond in kind, be humble, and eventually you will be forgiven and even accepted. Some people may never accept you, but that's life.