I feel angry...and I don't know why...it scares me...this capacity for anger.
It's like a black wave, seeking to engulf my entire being, this anger...
I'm losing control and I've this urge to do something...
I guess right now, the worst of it is over...but seriously, honestly, this irrational leaning towards violence......
There are so many things that I wanna say but can't...and THAT pisses me off...
It's not that I'm not able to articulate it...
It's just that, ANGER is a destructive influence, and there are things that I hold too precious to let them be destroyed...
It's the kind of ANGER which makes you just wanna scream, lose your freaking head, bang your fists against the walls, run till you freaking DROP!! arghz...
Let it all out??
Take it off my chest??
Who would listen??
The people who would/might, maybe its just YOU that I'm pissed with...no...I'm not pissed...
It's not a "I'm pissed with you" kinda thing...it's...it's an "I'm just ANGRY" kinda thing...
As in...I KNOW why I'm angry, but I dunno why I SHOULD be angry...I think I'm losing it...
You know, it's just so difficult to lead my life right now...
NO, I do NOT feel like ending it...I'm just frustrated with it...
I mean, how can people be so dense nowadays?
How can people be so un-understanding??
They're all blind, deaf...and yet...how I FEEL...what I REALLY wanna say, should never, EVER, be said.
But I'll say it anyway...
I ordered a Venti Mint Chocolate Chip Frappuccino Blended Creme and this is a Grande Double Chocolate Chip Frappuccino Blended Creme!!!!
Make it again you Red-Diaper-Doper Baby before I drive my car through this pathetic excuse of a front door and make everyone in this store "oxygenically-challenged"!!!!
If I have saved just one person from running over a gay liberal hippy barista, this thread is worhth all the electrons it has burned up.