My sister had no husband, her son was grown, she heard strange voices in her head and asked to be excused from this life. I don't get it. I know that she is no longer in pain, but life is a gift!!
I drove past a sign today that said "Poverty is hereditary, you get it from your kids"...and my thought was-"That's a lie!" My children are my riches.
One of the hardest parts of this whole thing is dealing with my nephew. He is rudderless. My sister only had the strength to see him to adulthood.
I have in my hand, my youngest's mandatory "journal" from eighth grade. His title; "Paragon of Greatness." He gives his opinion on Title IX, T.V., School Spirit and Affirmative Action. Sample quotes:"Don't blame TV, blame the student." and "...being unaffected by school spirit I ask you 'how many girls want to play football?'"
I was trying to make sense out of it all...out of Life, the Universe and Everything when I came upon this scripture from the Upper Room: (I bought my sister a large print subscription.)
Job 38:1-18 (NRSV) Then the LORD answered Job out of the whirlwind: "Who is this that darkens counsel by words without knowledge? Gird up your loins like a man, I will question you, and you shall declare to me.
"Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding. Who determined its measurements--surely you know! Or who stretched the line upon it? On what were its bases sunk, or who laid its cornerstone when the morning stars sang together and all the heavenly beings shouted for joy?
"Or who shut in the sea with doors when it burst out from the womb?-- when I made the clouds its garment, and thick darkness its swaddling band, and prescribed bounds for it, and set bars and doors, and said, 'Thus far shall you come, and no farther, and here shall your proud waves be stopped'?
"Have you commanded the morning since your days began, and caused the dawn to know its place, so that it might take hold of the skirts of the earth, and the wicked be shaken out of it? It is changed like clay under the seal, and it is dyed like a garment. Light is withheld from the wicked, and their uplifted arm is broken.
"Have you entered into the springs of the sea, or walked in the recesses of the deep? Have the gates of death been revealed to you, or have you seen the gates of deep darkness? Have you comprehended the expanse of the earth? Declare, if you know all this."
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Sometimes His spirit speaks to my thirsty soul. It is enough...for now.
Dutchgirl, what a bittersweet post, and I thank you from the bottom of my heart for writing it. Life is such a gift. The greatest gift of our Lord. You have such wisdom as well as wit. You are so blessed. I am so sorry about your sissy. I will come back to your post and reread it more than a few times. You have a good night tonight, Dutchgirl. Sleep tight. And thank you again. I am glad to know you.
What a perfect scriptural quote for yesterday...