When I left the first time, that was not nearly as toxic and vicious as this time.
Frankly, saying it's always like this is not really a solution.
No, ace, saying it's always like this means it doesn't NEED a solution. Like the weather, it is what it is. If you can't cope with all the alleged toxicity and viciousness, you can always write an opus and depart again. The rest of us will, somehow, try to go on.