[N. Beaujon]

Oh my God, mommadoo, I just saw your post. (Evidently "all" doesnt actually send this post out to all of us.) I am so sad for you and so upset you are blaming yourself. This is so wrong. I'm convinced Twister went off to start her journey on the Rainbow bridge. You didnt prolong her agony, you gave her great love in the last, natural stages of her life. The only pain now is yours. I hope our prayers and offers of support can help ease your journey through the mourning process. By blaming yourself you are doing yourself a terrible injustice. You were not in control here. Twister's time had come, you are to be admired for all that you did. Please let us know if there is anything we can do to ease your pain.

[mommadooo3]

Thanks for your words of comfort!

I'm doing better today. I can tell that the prayer-ers are 'working'. Every time the images/sadness overwhelm me, I sense a Blanket of 'Peace' enveloping me, and I'm able to think about other 'stuff'. LOL...it's gonna take a couple/few days before my eyes STOP lookin' like a druggie's. (heh...no 'bags', more like steamer trunks)

For the sake of my heart, I've made the decision to REFUSE to dwell on things, and to take the space to heal. I know that it's going to be a while before I am a part of the daily feedings. (hubby and kids will have to take over) I always looked forward to Twister's whinny and run, at grain time, and it's gonna be too hard, right now, NOT to see that.

I did a bunch of 'research' on the net, aging horses by their teeth. From what I've seen/read, she was well over 30. (when she was 'down', I could look and poke around in her mouth. We couldn't do such a thorough exam when she was 'up and around')

She's in good company at The Rainbow Bridge.