I've been shot at by professionals, and I've been divorced. Divorce is harder.
Divorce is harder.
I agree, divorce is the easy way out in the short term but harder in the long term. It takes a lot of hard work in a marriage. By default it is not about you anymore or your wife, it is about your kid. Being a parent is a life time commitment (I still tell my 92 year old Mom she's not done raising us yet)
I share your thoughts about lacking a good male model. They are out there so go look for one in a church. If you don't find it there, go to another church, until you do find one.