For heaven's sake man, get a hold of yerself...
I think maybe all this is just a desperate coping mechanism. I got depressed by 7 am watching the flippin news. So I sat on the couch and watched Matlock and Little House on the Prairie. Sure, Pa got beat up in town again, but truth and good won out, and everything will was alright in the end.
I am watching Martha Stewart now. It's a good thing.