[January24th]

Philosophy

i defy the gravity
of interest
self-or-otherwise
i exist without
agenda or agent
pride or portfolio

i was born to a purpose
of passion and probability
with a faulty fatalism
that dares dream
I laugh and love again
and find myself
within another's
interested sighs
content to be

to love is all
the rest is survival
to rule or defend
'gainst death's sure arrival
but to love and be loved
is a much better end.

[Kay Syrah]

i was born to a purpose
of passion and probability
with a faulty fatalism
that dares dream
I laugh and love again
and find myself
within another's
interested sighs
content to be

Death has regarded
my self interest
and decided to remove
those men held dear to me
father, brother, friend and lover
each in the space of a few short months.

yet I try the metaphor to remember
them in words that fail.
Loss is the inevitibility
and survival is the same
I wish in what I write to
leave not my own, but their name.

Perhaps if I had known the game
I could memorialise them better
but they are in every word I write
and my sorrow is only that
they were not loved by a better poet.

[Camachee]

i left maryland
on a friday
hay day
pay day
celebrating
a harvest
in which
i invested
only sweat
and regret
for a bitter crop
hoping for better