I always like to think should the scenario arise I would kill without compunction. And in certain circumstances I surely would.What always has me shaking my head is when they show someone killing another person for (ostensibly) the first time, the shooter always pauses...looks gaunt, goes running for a bush and supposedly pukes.
I don't get it.
I don’t either.
I am 99% sure I would not do that. Can’t be 100% because I have never had to face that.
I keep thinking if it was like a breakin scenario I would be more worried with getting the mess cleaned up after they cart his dead butt away.
What always has me shaking my head is when they show someone killing another person for (ostensibly) the first time, the shooter always pauses...looks gaunt, goes running for a bush and supposedly pukes. I don't get it. That's what the Hollywood/TVland script writers and directors would like to think would be their oh-so-civilized reaction. And if they can get some of those from flyover country to pause a bit their first time out, they count that as a plus.
Remember, the young socialists were taught early the bitter lessons of Whites versus Reds.
Whites executing members of the Red Guard in Varkaus in February 1918 (photo source: Hannula 56). Few prisoners were taken after the Whites captured Varkaus; nearly everyone was shot (Uola 252).
“when they show someone killing another person for (ostensibly) the first time, the shooter always pauses...looks gaunt, goes running for a bush and supposedly pukes.”
Psychological sight of blood and gore:
If a person tends to faint at the sight of blood, that's a problem. Many years ago, when my son was about six, he jumped off something in back yard and a piece of metal cut his leg open about a six inch cut and it was fairly deep as I could pull the two sides of the cut together and realize those two sides should be together. I was fine getting him to the emergency room, but when I saw the doctor begin to actually sew up his leg, I got faint and had to sit down.
After many years past, in the 1990s, I became a licensed EMT so I'm used to seeing blood and gore now. Think about red blood - what does it do? Among other things, it carries oxygen and food nutrients to cells - it's just a small river delivering goods somewhere and happens to be red. If a dam breaks (vessels/capillaries carrying blood), the red river liquid will come out of the vessel/capillary and that dam break needs to be fixed with first aid equipment. You can desensitize yourself to get over the sight of blood making you queasy, by looking at colored bloody pictures you pull up on the internet. Look at the pictures and realize that red is the color of that stream of water.
“Gore” is body parts messed up so the sight is uncomfortable to see. You can also look at gory pictures on the net to start desensitizing yourself to seeing that.
I was watching when the Boston bombs went off at the Boston Marathon. I saw a woman with both her legs blown completely off, only her truck/arms/neck and head were still there. I knew she had to be dead. I have never forgotten that sight of her body and my anger at that sight made me want to kill that guy who put that bomb there, with my bare hands - he would be so dead.
I wanted to be there, could see myself with my medical life saving bag, going through those mangled bodies and stopping the bleeding of those still alive and there were many that day. The red river in those bodies had been blown apart and appendages were off bodies. I would not have reacted to the sight of that as my job would have been to FIX IT. You don't think about what you are seeing except you have to stop the red river if that body is still alive.
So practice by looking at bloody/gory pictures on the net - you can actually watch operations on the internet. Do that and see how bodies are fixed and put back together. In your mind, see yourself doing that - fixing bodies and also in charge of keeping the red river flowing in those bodies.