I think what you are saying might be exactly what it is.
The issue is that I was raised in an environment where survival skills were never really taught from an early age and my family was not interested in me really learning them (they placed way more emphasis on school and finding the most ideal colleges and stuff) and I live among people who place zero priority in survival so finding a survival community among my neighbors and coworkers was never an option. And right now, I it is not possible for me to create a survival group among any of my neighbors, coworkers or friends since they all have 0 interest in it. I am not even sure it could be done with any of the churches in my city - I suspect none of them have thought about it or would want to start one. So I figured if I could not find a survival community in the South or Texas or somewhere and join them I had 0 % chance of living anyway so might as well consider that God has officially turned his back on me. Particularly since I could likely be in a situation where I need to join a sort of prepared survival group but would not really know where to start in making myself useful to them.
To survive as a society there is more needed than hunter-gatherers.
Teachers all kinds, historians, electricians, mathematicians, dishwashers and cooks, don't tell me you have no useful skills.