That "sense" you have been feeling just may very well be the Lord knocking. I don't know what your spiritual situation is but please get a copy of the Holy Bible (there are many online versions you can read such as http://www.tgm.org/bible.htm. Start out by reading the Gospel of John. In it you will learn that Jesus Christ is Almighty God in the flesh who came to earth to pay for all the sins of the world and offers heaven/eternal life to us as a gift by God's grace and we receive this gift by faith in Jesus Christ.
Once you have come to faith in Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, then pray to God, your Heavenly Father, to lead you according to His will and to bring others into your life that can help you grow in your faith as you learn to live a life that honors and glorifies God. That, my friend, is when He WILL show you what His will is for your life and lead you to where He wants you to be. You do not have to fear what goes on in this fallen world because God is with you always and will never leave you or forsake you. He tells us:
Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” So we say with confidence, “The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can mere mortals do to me?” (Hebrews 13:5,6)
I'll be praying for you and would be happy to talk further should you want to. Just send me a Private Message here. God bless you!
I think what you are saying might be exactly what it is.
The issue is that I was raised in an environment where survival skills were never really taught from an early age and my family was not interested in me really learning them (they placed way more emphasis on school and finding the most ideal colleges and stuff) and I live among people who place zero priority in survival so finding a survival community among my neighbors and coworkers was never an option. And right now, I it is not possible for me to create a survival group among any of my neighbors, coworkers or friends since they all have 0 interest in it. I am not even sure it could be done with any of the churches in my city - I suspect none of them have thought about it or would want to start one. So I figured if I could not find a survival community in the South or Texas or somewhere and join them I had 0 % chance of living anyway so might as well consider that God has officially turned his back on me. Particularly since I could likely be in a situation where I need to join a sort of prepared survival group but would not really know where to start in making myself useful to them.
Here, here, boatbums!
Tuck into the Bible and ask the Lord what he would have you do.