Posted on 12/04/2014 11:42:28 AM PST by Cincinatus' Wife
[full title] Look at the Tea Party: Some of the angriest, most hateful people on earth, and theyre backed by what they think is Scripture
Forgiveness has become a pursuit more important to me than almost anything. Because as I said in an old book, its not my strong suit. I always joke that I wasnt one of those Christians who was heavily into forgiveness that I was the other kind; that I was reform. But its so awful to be a person who doesnt forgive; in my experience the willingness to change down deep always comes from the pain of not changing.
About 20 years ago, when my son started school, I realized I was holding grudges and resentment, sometimes against the other mothers. They might be too thin, or they might flaunt their wealth, or flaunt that their child was already reading in first grade. It took a lot of work to stick with the unpacking of the resentment to realize that it was always about self-loathing most of these people in the trajectory of the drones I fired were pretty innocent bystanders. The lack of forgiveness had to do with really bad old feelings I had about myself. The [others] were just conveniently annoying. They might say something really stupid about me or my son, and I would seize on it a like a dog with a bone throw it over my shoulder and chase it and fling it over the other side of the room and chase it down. It wouldnt have affected me if there hadnt been that age-old contempt a lot of us can still find in ourselves. The mix of self-contempt and grandiosity.
So I began a tradition, at that point, of examining these resentments I had so much trouble letting go of. Sometimes its just a bad day. In some ways, I had a bad 20s, because I was still drinking and not really able to do the kind of psychic and spiritual and psychological work of looking through the mess, to find what Id been lugging around in my backpack for years. I started the tradition at about 40, of being watchful instead of reactive.
I really believe that earth is forgiveness school I really believe thats why they brought us here, and then left us without any owners manual. I think were here to learn forgiveness. For me, it all begins with the hardest work of all, of being so crazily imperfect, and so sensitive and thin-skinned, and looking the way I look instead of like Cate Blanchett, which is disappointing. And all of the things we internalize in our younger years that other people might have said or hinted or even bullied us for.
To forgive someone is the hardest work we do. Ive had to be disciplined about it. I always say Im so disciplined in my writing because very strict discipline is the only way Ive found any freedom as an artist. Like meditation or in my spiritual journey, or exercise hiking you never want to do any hard work you just want to watch MSNBC and eat miniature Kit-Kats. Believe me, thats what Id prefer to do. Or maybe try to catch up with old issues of the New Yorker. But in my work, I hold an imaginary pop gun to my head, and I sit down and my butt stays in the chair no matter what.
Not forgiving makes you toxic. And then you really have very little to offer your family or the world or your audience, because youre faking it.
The victory in [my new book] Small Victories is forgiveness its the hardest thing we do. Half of the stories, which took so long for me to write and get right, are about that predicament of that clenched, clutched feeling when we dont forgive. And then that miracle of grace, like a spiritual WD-40, that gets into the very stuck, grinding places inside of us. Ive had to forgive both of my parents for very major injuries. Through the years, and even since theyve been dead just because someone dies doesnt mean theyre off the hook. You carry it inside because theres an injury inside. My son and I wrote a book together called Some Assembly Required, and he said something in there: If someone forgives you, they have found the willingness to feel awful again, and to re-experience the injury you did to them. And then to find something greater than themselves that lets them say Goodbye, lets be done. And I hear your apology, your contrition, and I forgive you. That to me is so amazing. Maybe the most amazing thing is when somebody forgives me for a serious injury Ive done them.
All wisdom traditions have at their root three basic ideas: To take care of the poor, to cultivate a sense of presence or union with a power much greater than ourselves, and to soften the heart. In the fullness of those traditions as opposed to the fundamentalist version of those traditions you dont hit back. For me as a Christian, the two main things are youre supposed to let go and let God, and youre supposed to turn the other cheek. Those two things are like my two worst realms. People are always saying, Let go and let God and I just want to stab them. People say, We just need to forgive and forget. As if they had.
The more public I am, the more people I talk to, the more I realize that Id been comparing my insides to peoples outsides. And peoples insides are all the same amount of screwed-up-idness People are very hurt, theyre very scared for their families, theyre keening deep down for what happened to them as children. Sometimes with truly awful families, sometimes with a culture that only values beauty or fitting in and a meritocracy. And people who were shunned by their families because of fundamentalism or because of who they loved. I find out everybodys in the same boat. And writings my way of figuring things out. People feel troubled and sad and overwhelmed by the amount of pain theyre carrying. Look at the Tea Party, for instance some of the angriest, most hateful people on earth, and theyre backed by what they think is the Scripture. The Scripture is 180 degrees away from that.
The other night I did a big event, and someone asked what I hope people there left with. And I said, I hope people realize that were infinitely more similar, more alike, than we are different that were all angry, no matter how sweet or Buddhist or Christian or tender-hearted we appear. Were all angry. And weve got to deal with it at some point. And dealing with the grief and the anger and the lack of forgiveness is the way home.
A tradition of that is something Ive been able to pass on to my son. Hes grown up with a mother whos willing to be contrite, to get to the bottom of things and to see that sometime its me who Ive been mad at. The tradition of letting your children watch you ask for forgiveness is beautiful.
Sad.
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Sad.
I think she needs some cheering up, to actually get out and meet some really nice people, Tea Party people.
Why are liberals always so angry?
Sad.
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She’s pimping her “book”.
She’s welcome to her opinions, same as anyone else.
She hasn’t seen the Tea Party angry...yet.
Opinions are like Algores...
everyone’s got one.
I forgive you for posting this.
This is coming from someone who has quite obviously never looked at or talked to any one who holds Tea Party values.
It appears she can forgive just about anyone anyone but the “hateful” members of the Tea Party.
And not one of them has ever done anything to her to deserve her loathing and scorn.
Bless her heart. Maybe some day after Anne Lamott grows up, she will realize just how silly she sounds.
Poor thing sure need an American history lesson. or maybe a civics lesson.
Or maybe she really is just one of the Abbys and has no hope..
I read through her essay to find out why the Tea Party fit into her world in such a negative way. I had to wade through all her misery to find out that it’s a throw away line to elevate herself from all the miserable feelings she apparently has about herself.
Sad.
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: )
This lady needs to see a shrink and BADLY..maybe Dr. Phil is available..to this crazy b*tch, anyone who believes in the Constitution, life, and smaller Govt is evil..if this woman loves Communism so much she should move to North Korea get a piece of what that life tastes like
Well played!
” Look at the Tea Party, for instance some of the angriest, most hateful people on earth, and theyre backed by what they think is the Scripture. The Scripture is 180 degrees away from that. “
1) She never met even one Tea Party member
2) She never read the bible.
So now we know who beat that Bosnian man with hammers.
Good grief. She needs therapy, if only to keep her from boring the rest of us.
Sometimes the Temple needs to be cleansed. Righteous anger is the appropriate response.
I don’t get it. Her essay doesn’t seem to support the title.
“Look at the Tea Party, for instance some of the angriest, most hateful people on earth, and theyre backed by what they think is the Scripture.”
And she hates them because they are so judgmental.
Why is this drivel posted on Free Republic? Why do we give them the the internet traffic they need to survive?
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