Same here. I feel guilty for being a selfish dumba$$ by not serving my country as well as missing out on the benefits the military could have had on my life. The BS in Architectural Design was a little short on duty, honor, and country.
If you consider the fact that Commissioned Officers (as I was) are commissioned to act as the delegated authority of the Commander-in-Chief within the services, once the CiC disgraces himself, how can one not feel a bit tarnished as well?
I left honorably at the end of my service obligation in '95. I could no longer stand what the 'leadership' was doing to the Army I loved. I felt free to go on my way because I knew I had some decent job prospects on the outside and didn't have to sell my soul to stay in. In '99 I resigned my commission to take a Sergeant's job in the National Guard.