I disagree with your assessment of yourself.
You presuppose that He will not care a bit whether you follow His requests/demands for your relationship with Him or your own.
Perhaps you presuppose that you cannot know with sufficient proof enough precision about His expectations of you to bother trying to fulfill them.
You seem to presuppose that your [to my notion] extremely detached--150' pole relationship with God is more than sufficient and will not offend nor annoy nor grieve Him in the slightest.
I'll stop there. But I suspect I could tease out several more presuppositions on your part about God and about your relationship/precarious relationship/non-intimate relationship/non-relationship with Him.
Probably others hereon could as well.
I almost wonder if your mirror is shattered. Perhaps investing in a new one would be worth it.
Except, as you say in your next post, that He is all-powerful and all-knowing. From where do your presuppositions come?