Well, I guess it's pretty clear you do not have any kind of personal relationship with God. After all, you can't have a relationship someone and then logically say that you can't know they exist, only believe.
HOWEVER, WHAT SEEMS TO ESCAPE YOU IS
That this statement of yours above is ALSO A STATEMENT OF FAITH.
IT MAY WELL NOT BE TRUE! YOU DON'T HAVE SUFFICIENT ALL ENCOMPASING EVIDENCE OR SUFFICIENT ALL KNOWING PERSPECTIVE TO BE ABLE TO SAY SUCH A STATEMENT APART FROM FAITH in it's "validity."
Protesting that it is a statement of faith would make you out a fraud. I sure hope you can see it!