...With al due respect, brother: who cares what you believe? By what authority do you decide what is the Truth and what isn't? By abandoning the Church, you have set yourself up as the only infallible authority on matters of faith and morals -- a Papacy of One. Well, pardon me if I don't give what you believe much credence, because what you believe is not taught by Scripture or Tradition nor by the infallible magisterium of the Catholic Church.
If it comes down to what you believe vs. what Our Lord, St. Peter, St. Paul, and the Holy Father teach, you'll please pardon me if I go with them instead of you.
I'll be praying for you, for the murderer you defend, and most especially for the family of this innocent, martyred woman, who died with the Gospel of Christ on her lips and who is most certainly rejoicing in Glory at the feet of Our Lord right now.
B-chan