I think you are just blinded and hardened by Almighty God.
Here are verse from Romans 9 on this very subject.
9:11
(For the children being not yet born, neither having done any good or evil, that the purpose of God according to election might stand, not of works, but of him that calleth;)
9:12
It was said unto her, The elder shall serve the younger.
9:13
As it is written, Jacob have I loved, but Esau have I hated.
9:14
What shall we say then? Is there unrighteousness with God? God forbid.
9:15
For he saith to Moses, I will have mercy on whom I will have mercy, and I will have compassion on whom I will have compassion.
9:16
So then it is not of him that willeth, nor of him that runneth, but of God that sheweth mercy.
9:17
For the scripture saith unto Pharaoh, Even for this same purpose have I raised thee up, that I might shew my power in thee, and that my name might be declared throughout all the earth.
9:18
Therefore hath he mercy on whom he will have mercy, and whom he will he hardeneth.
9:19
Thou wilt say then unto me, Why doth he yet find fault? For who hath resisted his will?
9:20
Nay but, O man, who art thou that repliest against God? Shall the thing formed say to him that formed it, Why hast thou made me thus?
9:21
Hath not the potter power over the clay, of the same lump to make one vessel unto honour, and another unto dishonour?
9:22
What if God, willing to shew his wrath, and to make his power known, endured with much longsuffering the vessels of wrath fitted to destruction:
9:23
And that he might make known the riches of his glory on the vessels of mercy, which he had afore prepared unto glory,
9:24
Even us, whom he hath called, not of the Jews only, but also of the Gentiles?
You are simply one that Almighty God hardened. You don't have a choice whether to believe or not. God chooses his elect before time began, if you are not chosen, then you will be hardened.
I don't hate you at all. I just find it amusing that you keep refusing to answer the question that Mr. McGee asked you, and since you cannot or will not answer, your silence leads me to believe that you are a homosexual. At the very least you are a Homosexual activist, and in my opinion that makes you a Homosexual at heart.