I am not as interested in it as I was 7 years ago yes I admit as much. But then again that applies to everything in my life now not just scripture. My studying days are behind me and no not by choice. It is now difficult to read a paragraph and concentrate on it never mind a chapter. Even a whisper to me of distraction and the thought process leaves. A medical problem is the cause not a spiritual one.
You say I'm not interested in GODS word as in not wanting truth as though you are wrong and you do not know me or my heart who made you my judge? I care enough to understand it that when I could I read up on Hebrew traditions so the parables were more clear as well as prophecies. All of them each and every one centers around Hebrew customs. Understand them and a new understanding comes to the Bible as well as a deeper appreciation. No I don't read much anymore. I don't watch tv either. A post that takes you a few seconds takes me perhaps 30 minutes and has harsh spelling mistakes as well as structure in my sentences.
Church? No I don't go there. I prefer when I could go a church that the preacher was spirit filled. That is now not possible as my neurological responses would be a distraction to myself and others. Pastors like Meyer and Hagee deliver the message to me and others unable to attend church. I listen to other not just them. But I'll tell you this much if the first words out of the preachers mouth is wholesale condemnation of other Christian faiths off goes the tv. That differs greatly from one explaining why their church believes this context from anothers.
On a good day I can sit through most of it. On the bad ones I catch the opening sentences. Even prayer is a problem as my mind goes elsewhere in the midddle of it. It might suprise you though to actually learn how conservative to scripture my beliefs actually are. But then again that is not what matters to me either. I am leary of and shy away from those who demand absolute obiedience to their teachings on faith and the Gospel. Jim Jones deceived many by demanding absolute loyality to his doctorine. And many absolutely followed him blindly as well. Yes they as well though they had GOD's plan and only they could possibly be right. My purpose for staying with this thread? I posted it before . To dispell or limit the damage to weaker faiths of others reading this thread. I've had persons from about all churchs try to convert me or worse try to cast doubts on my very salvation. That is not of GOD and is wrong. Yet amazingly each church it seems thinks it is their duty to disrupt the convictions of others even by means of deceit themselves.
I am not trying to be mean in saying that. Nor do I claim to have all the answers for you. But I still think you need to re-read my posts on this thread. You and I are miles apart.