I'm won't send full details of my situation over the net, but as someone who has gone through neurosurgery three times since '91 already, I'm more than happy to share background/notes/details on this by other means; we can work out details on that one.
All I can do is stop to consider that had I missed living my life in this time and in this place, it would already be over. What you have from here on is not a curse, but an extra blessing from God. Remember to treat each day that way. Marvel that you are alive in his Creation, and act accordingly.
His Creation