Jo, I suggest you go back and retake grades 1-12 and pay particular attention in history and civics class. If you fail to make an A, then retake it again and again until you do.
Then read all Cold War headline articles since roughly the end of WWII.
Then, if you still love Russia that means you are not an American Patriot and thus you should do us all a favor and move to Russia. A plus for you is that Putin could use you on his front line. Since you hate Ukraine you will think you died and went to heaven.
If you need air fare to Moscow, some of us will pitch in.
These patriots agree with you