CaptainPaintBall has you pegged...
Actually, it seems you're two of a kind: Relying on video, rather than interact with "scary" black people, or putting yourself in a career that gives you contact with "scary" hard men and women who do the work that you're too frightened to do.
Let me ask you, since you "live in San Antonio", why do you need the news to tell you what's going on?
I'm going to guess here, you don't really live IN San Antonio, you live in an outlying suburb, San Antonio being the nearest city anyone would recognize. The thought of actually going into San Antonio gives you a stress headache, doesn't it? Not that I blame you, believing that videos and what you see on the news is representative of reality would scare the bejesus out of someone already pre-disposed to being frightened.