You might benefit from studying the concept of free will as it applies to love. Then again, maybe not.
Are you really sure there is such a thing as free will?
After all we had no control over what we were born with, our physical make up, our brains/mind, the environment we were born into, etc. Aren’t all our decisions and actions a direct function of what we were born with (and which we had no control over) and use that to react to or shape the outside environment?
Seems like we have about as much free will as anything we as humans create, like cars, computers, houses...
I think we’re more like a complex set of a bunch of sensors with setpoints (like thermostats) which when reached cause certain processes in our brain to activate. And the action we take are those that we THINK will lead us to a happier state - the pursuit of happiness.
BTW, I’m sorry to hear about your fading eyesight - must be discouraging. As for typos, I haven’t seen any. :)